So it is the eve of the release of ‘The Stories We Tell’ exhibition which is the biggest release of my works to date. I appear to be having an inner meltdown. Questioning who the heck am I? There are incredible artists well beyond my ability (so, so many). Imposter syndrome has set in and I am in freeze mode. Mind uncertain. Can I deliver? Can I achieve the point that is aimed for in this one?
I really don’t know.
I know that this is the inner landscape of many an artists thoughts and emotions. Really I am still just beginning, finding my creative voice. Not even ‘my’ way or voice but connecting with the intrinsic energy that seems to flow through this entity that I call ‘me’. I’ve read many a story of this inner dance but for the first time feeling it raw in my gut. I feel I’m teetering on the edge.
I’m not sure if I can pull it off in the way that I hope to but if I don’t try I won’t learn or grow so I just have to take the leap. Let’s see…..