What was is now not
Life offers no second chance
The gaping hole where once my heart was,
Now empty, just naught.
There isn’t a single day my heart doesn’t ache,
Wide open and simultaneously closed,
Regardless much trying no healing occurs,
What’s missing? you, our roots and connection before take.
I can’t seem to put myself together again,
Lost all touch with meaning and a deep hole,
A piece of my jigsaw just gone
Sucked up the vacuum, in vain.
Once filled with laughter openness and play,
That golden thread of connection I still feel it inside,
Yet the emptiness of reality just burns and I’m in pain,
All that once was just a memory, gone, past, no more to say.
I’m not healing, I wish I was
The dance over, why? Because.
I miss you,
and still feel my sincerest love too.
I feel robbed of a life that could have been so very fine
I’m wounded and tired.
Something removed, not nurtured nor given real proper time.
I know I can only ever be true to my heart,
‘Grief is just love with nowhere to go’…
Well that’s what they say,
I can still love you although life has forced us apart.
Never ever, ever, ever again
I renounce it
I will not open for such loss or pain.
Life has its path and all is done.
Never a replacement,
I accept with full grace,
Dreams all gone with the setting sun.
~ Stacie Amelia